February 1st, 2006

Current Music: death cab for cutie Time: 10:05 pm

i think i really fucked this up. i hope this isn't the end. i want things to work out for once. is that possible?

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December 22nd, 2005

Current Music: animal collective Time: 08:09 pm Current Mood: i dunnoooo

i never thought i'd say this, but i miss ohio. soooo much. i miss my friends. and Martin. i really miss Martin. snow really isn't that bad. how's everyone's break? talk to me, please. i need something to occupy my time. other than deuce bigalow. (ewww)

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December 18th, 2005

Current Music: wilco Subject: hmm...this is interesting... Time: 08:25 pm Current Mood: happy

Your Suicide Name / Username You Will drown Your last words be "Don't wait for me.." Why you did it You hated everyone Your theme song is... "Nobody" by Amy Studt Will anyone miss you? nobody Will you become a ghost? yes- and I will haunt the people who made me do it This Quiz by QueenIceAngel - Taken 435 Times. </a> New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!

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Current Music: explosions in the sky Time: 01:35 am Current Mood: tired

okay. so it's one-thirty, and i can't fall asleep, despite the fact that i'm exhausted. i didn't realize i hated flying so much, but i really do. and the flights were so short, it hardly seemed worth it. ah well. things are going better than expected, i guess. sarah and kevin are being really cool; i can pretty much do whatever i want. and they have a ton of junk food for us to eat, including a huge bowl full of candy sitting on the kitchen counter. i grab a piece every time i go by. however, it's been pouring all day, so we're kinda stuck inside, and sarah (sister) is really sick, so she's worse than useless. and there's this stupid clock in our room that ticks so loudly there's no way i'm gonna be able to ever fall asleep. i might try the couch next. anyway. i kinda wish i were still in ohio, despite the snow and such. i would rather spend this week relaxing and hanging out with my friends (even though i know that said hanging out would be minimal, as everyone is way too busy). but this entry has gone on for long enough. i'm gonna go try and sleep again...

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December 16th, 2005

Current Music: animal collective Time: 07:00 pm Current Mood: leaving in the morning

i really don't want to leave. really really really. why did i agree to do this? what is wrong with me? keep me company while i'm gone, k?

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December 14th, 2005

Current Music: architecture in helsinki Subject: he's amazing. Time: 11:47 am Current Mood: content

for the first time in forever, i feel really happy. i mean, i've always had those moments of contentment, but they've never lasted, you know? but now it's more of a general feeling, like i know that things are gonna be okay, no matter what. i hope this never goes away.

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December 11th, 2005

Current Music: PERCUSSION ENSEMBLE Time: 09:24 pm Current Mood: happy

you know what's really fun? beating up some kid you barely know in a cold, dark, snowy parking lot in the name of friendship. seriously. you should try it sometime.

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December 10th, 2005

Current Music: beatles - abbey road Time: 03:56 pm Current Mood: tired

this weather is really starting to get on my nerves. i hate freezing every time i even go near a window or door. i'm always cold anyway. however...i'm going to florida in a week. yay for warm weather! although it's only about 50 there right now. and i'm really really nervous about it, since my aunt is insane and all. can anyone explain to me why she needs to know my bra size? i'm really tired. and work is boring/exhausting. i'm not sure how this works, but i definitely don't like it. that being said, i'm gonna go shelve some books.

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December 3rd, 2005

Current Music: sigur ros - () Time: 07:39 pm Current Mood: sad...

i just want someone to talk to :(

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December 1st, 2005

Current Music: flaming lips - all we have is now Time: 08:52 pm Current Mood: happyhappyhappy

so i'm officially addicted to livejournal and myspace. and starting sentences with 'so'. hmmmm... anyway. yay for the weekend. friends, friends, and more friends. if any/all of this falls through, i might just kill myself. help me avoid doing that, k? and if anyone wants to do something saturday night from like 5-10, let me know. i don't want to stay home... things are going good right now. i'm (somewhat) proud of myself. people are nice. 'cept for the ones who think there's a z in scissors...

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November 30th, 2005

Current Music: kid a (do i listen to anything else?) Time: 12:45 pm Current Mood: ehhh

ohh dear. i hate getting back into my 'routine' after breaks. it's altogether too difficult. i feel completely trapped right now, and i don't really like it. i seem to be losing friends daily, and the people i really love i hardly get to see or even talk to. i'd like to get to know people more, but it's so awkward. and i never have enough time. for like, anything. i can't wait till college is over...

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November 23rd, 2005

Current Music: kid a Time: 05:41 pm Current Mood: cabin fever sets in already...

AAARRRRGGGGG i've only been home for about 10 minutes, and i already have cabin fever. today was supposed to be good! it was 'senior skip day.' being the loser i am, i went anyway. and i should have skipped. it was tres, tres boring. as was yesterday. school's so pointless... work sucked. the computers shut down, so we had to do everything by hand. there was nothing to put away. and no one would talk to me. on the way home, i started spinning more than once. it was scary. i listened to 'kid a' at full blast to calm myself down. radiohead is so soothing. martin and i were supposed to go see harry potter, as we are the only two people on the face of the earth who haven't seen it yet. but no. it had to fucking snow. to summarize: this week, despite many promising plans, has sucked. the weekend had better be fun.

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Current Music: radiohead - kid a Time: 11:05 am Current Mood: happy

the last two days of school have been completely pointless. i should have skipped today. but... yay for thanksgiving break! somehow i managed to get an entire week off work, too. so from thursday to monday, there is NOTHING i 'have' to do. everything is optional. life is good!

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November 21st, 2005

Current Music: explosions in the sky Time: 05:35 am Current Mood: sad

so fox has officially canceled arrested development. there are only five more episodes. i'm very sad. now what am i gonna watch?

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November 20th, 2005

Current Music: streets Time: 12:24 am Current Mood: i don't even know...

"talking to you is like pulling teeth...i try to be nice and talk to [you], right? not pry, but care. i'm trying to be like the all amazing super friend..." oh god. am i really that awful? i mean, i know i'm kinda quiet. but i thought...i don't know. no wonder my friends hate me.

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November 19th, 2005

Current Music: either/origami! Time: 10:56 pm Current Mood: happy

umm...okay. so i know i've said this before, but seriously. either/origami is awesome. their show last night was great. new song! so, yeah. shame on of all you who didn't come. and yay! to all of you who did.

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November 15th, 2005

Current Music: SoCo (yes, it sucks, but i love it) Time: 05:06 pm Current Mood: okay

so i totally stole this picture from anne. i have no idea where she got it, but there it was on her myspace (loser. you're supposed to tell me when i'm your hero.) it's half-way decent, though, so...here it is. i love warm days like today. i was shocked, and i was actually sweating in a few of my classes. we watched 'the daily show' in logic, and i had forgotten how much i love it. i may have to start watching it again, even though i don't get enough sleep as it is. oh well.

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November 13th, 2005

Current Music: iron and wine Time: 04:50 pm Current Mood: happy

yyyyyaaaaayyyyy!!!!! after a week of self-doubt, self-loathing, and just general hell, things are okay again. better than that, actually; things are great. i'm happy. very very happy. and that makes me happy. :)

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November 10th, 2005

Current Music: radiohead - kid a Subject: it was supposed to be so easy... Time: 10:36 pm Current Mood: i don't even know...

oh my GOD. this is absolutely ridiculous. i think way too much, and i hate myself for that. hate why why why isn't this easier? you know, boy meets girl, boy and girl like each other, boy and girl live happily ever after? damn disney and romantic comedies. THIS TOTALLY BLOWS i can't even express how angry/disappointed/upset/confused i am right now. i'm so afraid of people, and i think i've figured out why: i bore myself, and i'm afraid people will think the same of me. and that would suck.

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Current Music: flaming lips - ego tripping at the gates of hell Time: 09:11 pm Current Mood: boys suck.

this is so ridiculous.

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